Christmas

Last night - oh shit. I phoned my friend John and we toasted drinks last night, him Vodka, me tequila. I only had 2 shots, then fired up the bong. Somewhere during that process he managed to drop his phone between the fridge and the wall. I enjoyed a view under his fridge for a few minutes while he desperately tried to work the broom to snatch it.

Cross-fading was never my thing. That's when you drink and get high. I let the booze wear off by drinking a bit more water. But I did get stupid high. Somewhere during that evening I had the overwhelming feeling that Theresa was near. I knew it.

I had a vision, her face appeared, she smiled and said "I love you". (In the way she said it, she emphasized the word love"

It was probably the THC, but I'm grateful anyway. I feel like a weight had been lifted from me.

A week until 2020. It's hard to believe we've gotten this far. I really hope 2020 is better for me.