Valentine's Day

Theresa, April 2019

Valentine's day was special for us. When she could work, we would always get each other a card. I'd buy her perfume, card, candy's, maybe some clothes, who knows... she loved it. Near the end she couldn't do that anymore, it didn't matter to me. That was just objects. What mattered was something you couldn't buy in a store, a long lasting love.

And now I approach my first one without her. I shed a few tears. It would be a year today the last time we were together sexually. Hear health was rapidly declining, I told her do not worry. That's why God gave man two hands. (It's a bad joke).

Hell I even cried writing this goddamn blog post. I have a feeling I won't be single for very long. Already I feel a woman who is getting closer to me. But I think we are totally incompatible. But who knows. I am in no rush to meet anyone. But I do want to start online dating in a month - just to even make friends is enough.

I still go to the gym 5 days a week. I no longer do all the weights every day however. I started to get tendonitis in my arm from over-use of the weights. Now I only do 3 a week, the rest is bike for the 2 other days.

But I will always love Theresa.