My Life is Shit

 

From the outside, my life looks fairly normal and dull. Inside though, a lot of changes have happened - and mostly bad. I've lost my home, my job, and also my dignity in many ways.

I feel like a collapsed man, a puffed up marshmallow, ready to collapse at the next needle poke. And they always appear. And although the posts here are crazy, my true self is normally hidden from everyone. 

To be honest, I've thought about killing myself a few times, but I can't do it. In fact I wished I couldn't do that. Instead, I'm trying to get life back in order, finding a job, etc. I no longer own any broadcasting equipment such as the headphones or microphone you see in the screenshot. Pretty much 80% of my stuff was seized illegally by my last landlord and thrown out or taken. I lost about $80,000 worth of stuff.

My so-called 'family' was gloating about me losing my apartment, sending e-mails taunting me about 'getting my stuff out of there'. Well I'm sorry, but fuck you. I will no longer answer any e-mails from those so-called friends or family. And I'm not a shell of myself either. I'm strong and confident, able to work hard in Information Technology. 

I will achieve my goals.

I miss Theresa and I want her to know I still love her very much. xoxox