Avoiding Christmas

 

For me, the idea of celebrating Christmas is ludicrous. With Theresa gone, I no longer have any interest in celebrating anything. This dim view took hold once Theresa past away. The idea of buying a gift to create happiness is pure stupidity.

One doesn't need physical gifts to be happy. As I sit alone, I contemplate the past year with remorse and dread. What is the point? Endless consumption of gadgets, social media, technology, and other garbage. They mean absolutely nothing to me.

The awful Christmas music is back, a torturous time for the next month. I refuse to watch any Christmas movies and instead will watch my own compilation:

Scarface

Born on the 4th of July

The Godfather I & II

Black Christmas

Ringo (Japanese)

Deliverance

These movies give me hope. By viewing them, I distract myself from the awful pain. The pain of memory - the loss of Theresa.

I no longer covet material items. 

I hate new technology.

People are awful.

Life sucks.

Chris