Christmas Sucks

A co-worker gave me a nice Christmas card today, and inside was a gift card for 7-11 for $30! She wrote a very nice note, and it touched me. I am grateful to know such kind people like her. This holiday season is going to be very difficult for me. Last year Theresa was at home with me, she was pretty sick, and would be in the ICU on Dec 28.

As I reflect back on past Christmas's, spending time in Nova Scotia, our families eventually combined into one, and for a little while we were a good fit.

The painful memories of missing her come back. I've been very sick the past few days, coughing and hacking. On antibiotics, strong ones, and am starting to feel better. You can ask God to kill you but he'll never answer that prayer.

I bought lots of gifts for my mother. I like making people happy. I sent a friend a new grinder and he appreciated it. I'll send another friend something else. I don't expect or want any gifts back. It's not about that.

Original G-Shock and the Mudman, Right

Watch is twice as heavy as my old G-Shock

I bought my cat a new cat tree. My G-shock watch came in, my god, what an upgrade. Don't get me wrong, I like my old G-shock too, but this one.... such a boost in quality. The hands move with precision and it has a stupid thermometer and compass built into it.

The Mudman G-shock has luminescent hands and points.

But most importantly, it's not a smart watch. I made that mistake a few years ago when I bought the Martian watch. A real piece of crap, the ring on the face fell off after 3 months of use.

My G-shock? Looks brand new - even the glass. It's the quality of the build. This new watch is mud resistant. I laughed at the depth of water it can stand - 20 bar.

But its' only a watch. These things will never fill the hole that exists in my heart. I listen to her voice mails every day.