I have no idea what the hell I am doing

 

But first, a joke.

I'd like to die like my grandfather - peacefully in his sleep. Not like his passengers, who screamed in terror. 

Oh you.

As I sit here, banging my head against the wall and refusing again to study for the Citrix exam. It's a boring ass exam. This subject is drier than Richard Prior on his first day out from rehab.

Ouch.

In a moment of weakness, I un-hid my Tinder profile and appeared in Moscow over night. I gained about 35 likes in a few hours. I felt dirty. I quickly changed locations to Calgary, then re-hid my profile. I somehow gained 1-2 likes in that moment.

I took a break from online dating to give myself a mental health check. I was also helping a close friend of mine manage their recent loss. She was a widow of 3 months. Life can be cruel.

It revealed how far I had come since losing Theresa almost 2 years ago. I feel I am close to finding that person in my life. Through trial and error, and dumb luck, I think this summer will be a great one.

My mojo is back.