How Do You Do It?

 My brother is 3 years younger than me and a very good man. He helps my mom with practically everything. I provide remote help, and when I visit I do work around the house. Because I had lived in Nova Scotia for almost 12 years, and Calgary before, we never really had a close relationship.

And now I wonder, how do you improve a fundamentally broken relationships? I do love my brother, and have great respect for him. Sometimes I feel guilty for living so far away when I did.

However, I was with Theresa and taking care of her and her family then. My responsibility. In theory there should not be any guilt. Talking through the issue internally, you should only feel true guilt when you intentionally did something to create harm or pain to someone. When I left for Nova Scotia, my goal was not to hurt my family. I wanted to get away from the Calgary rat race. 

The logical person in me says to acknowledge the distance and try to be patient. People are busy with their own lives. I must reflect and work on being patient and kind.

Also, I broke into my apartment building one day. I had left the office with my keys in the gym bag. Fortunately, I was able to pull myself up and also not get arrested by the police. My arm, however, took a good raking from the rough wood.

That office girl is staring into my eyes again.