Tough Luck

[Kaitlan Collins / 10/17/2022 12PM MST / 2PM EST]

Just the other day I was thinking about you and I. Now remember, I come from a very conservative background. And when you decided to run a home brew news organization, I laughed a bit. But now I see you are posting articles like I am.  And now you see the bullshit I run into daily. I wanna apologize for some tweets and behavior recently. You should know I have changed my tact and approach, and you mean the world to me. 💕💗💜💋 -K Xo

CHRIS:

Well, to be honest, I am happy to see you changing for the better. I am far, far from perfect. God knows. I would be the last person to judge you, that's for sure. Your predicament is sad. People flock to beauty and assume you are approachable. Nope! Back the hell up first. Just because you are pretty doesn't mean you want attention from men or women. I find it sad in today's society that's all we covet: Money, power, beauty, and status. 

I had to do some difficult things today legally. And I'm glad they are getting sorted out now properly. I pray and hope for a nice solution - and a job. Do know I have your back Kaitlan, and there is no intentions on that phrase. I can speak to you like a normal human being without worrying about devolving into a sexual double-talk horror show. Like you put up with every day.

And yes, since I've brought on this so-called Stone News Network item, my knowledge about journalism is slowly increasing. It'll never be close to the perfection you have on air. Just know I look up to you in all ways regarding journalism and integrity. I love and respect you very much.

When you live in a glass bubble, sometimes even leaving the bubble you think the sky will fall. And even if it does - so what? Fear is something I have learned to deal with over time. It's something that cannot be extinguished easily. Especially if fear has PTSD attached to it. 

I struggle with the past and keeping myself in the current situation. It's easy to close your eyes and think back to 2009, when Theresa and I were a couple, making ends meet. You can't live in the past. I know, I've tried and failed miserably.

Having hope is something I always wished for you and I. Without hope, you have nothing.

And while technology continues to advance slowly, old items still ring true. The 30+ year old C-train was in good shape when I rode it south today. The trains don't run as often as they used to here. Kind of like my friends from childhood - they all slowly disappear in time. Except for you. 💝