Battle Royale [Director's Cut, 2000, Japanese Edition]

 

People will stand up on the roof tops to help you, cheering, yelling support. But when you get to ground level, there's no one there, and quite frankly, it's a bit depressing after a while. 

I met an ex-coworker the other day, and it really pissed me off. First off, this person put their hands on my shoulders to say hello. Don't ever touch me, I told him. Putting your hands on someone is a dominant position, and I pulled out my right hand to throw a punch.

This is the kind of crap I have to deal with. I am not your best friend. No, I don't want to hang out or go jogging with you. I'm heterosexual and in a very complicated "relationship". I'm not attracted to men, and never will be. I wished that. It's so difficult to find the right girl. 

It took me a day to process this bullshit. I don't have time for this crap. Leave me the hell alone if you are a man. I don't want to 'chat' to catch up. There's no catching up here. Ever.

You know, I'm reminded by that abusive relationship Kaitlan had a few years ago. You can't force people to like you. It makes them resent you. I'm not anyone's 'buddy' for coffee or hanging out. I'm not into face-timing old friends. Nope. And just because we worked together doesn't mean I want to spend time with you. NEVER. 

I cut my friend list down to almost zero. 

And even then.

In 2 weeks I'll have Kitty again, and a new apartment - and a job hopefully. I had 3 interviews this week with 3 different companies. Things are looking up for me - and I wish it would continue.

You know, Kaitlan Collins had a good quote a few years ago on video. She said "You know, people in management are not there to date you". God, I know what she means. Everyone lunging for you, I don't have time for this bullshit.

Fuck

-CHRIS